free

here i m back again...

school reopen almost 2 weeks ad

but i still not yet start my study

my schedules are empty

bore + lame

i keep waiting here

and waiting there

waiting the favor reply

luckily,

i join an activity in skull

=UTAR MODEL=

it is quite interesting

i tot that it might boring

as well as nothing special

but it is not,

i'm honour to be joined

because learnt alot things through tere

and make some new friends too^^

During the 1st day 25th:

it was a standing pose + catwalk training

nomally people felt that it might be very easy for everyone

but wrong, it is difficult

because need to wear high heels to walk the cross X line

need to shaking your ass while walking

cannot too fast ,

because it will seems like very rush and show out not beauty

cannot too slow ,

because it will wasting the time and of coz not showing good results

i keep training with my partners- foong

until we success coming out results of nice catwalk

During the 2nd day 26th:

it was a makeup class
the professors teaching us how to makeup 
1st is nature look - simple and nice

2nd is dinner look - smookey eye and attractive


3rd day is today... later 2.30pm to 6pm
taking photos for every models....
to be continued^^

痛的♥情

当你伤害他人时，你是不懂那感受是多么的疼痛。。。
所以你就一而再，再而三的伤害，
他人的♥情你永远都不会懂，永远都不会了解。。。
不过，

当你是被伤害的受害者时，你就会体会到那痛的滋味其实是不好受。。。
比想象中的痛100倍。。。1000倍。。。10000倍。。。
当你懂了，领悟了，还来得及吗？

只要懂得知错能改，学习向人道歉。。。
你是可以被原谅的。。。
大家都会再次的接受你。。。
每个人都有机会，而机会是看你会不会懂得把握它。。。
错过了不知要等到何时才得到机会。。。

别人说你讲你再难听的话，
都把它听下去了，
哭了眼泪都流干了，
感谢他们的话，
让你醒了起来，
不要再笨下去了，
人心不可测，下次要小心防小人。。。

不要为自己做错的事而后悔。。。
每个人都会做错事，只是轻或重之差而已。。。
这是人生的过程。。。
我们都必须要经历的考验。。。免不了的。。。
所以不可轻易放弃。。。
不可向命运低头。。。

开心又要过，
不开心又要过，
为什么不选择开心呢？

开心的心情会让身边的人带来喜悦哦~

永远都要开心~

my 1st Pasta

Do you know this korean "PASTA" drama?

  “Pasta” covers the dreams and success of a young woman who aspires to become an elite chef at Mamma Mia restaurant.

  Seo Yoo Kyung started her career as a third ranked chef assistant at Mamma Mia restaurant. She eventually works her way up to become a chef.

  Choi Hyun Wook is the top chef at Mamma Mia restaurant. He studied the culinary arts in Italy and started out as a chef assistant at a hotel in Sicily. Hyun Wook eventually worked his way up to become the most widely recognized Italian chef in Korea. 

this is why i want to cook PASTA...

the drama influences me and attract me to do so...

this is my 1st time cook PASTA myself...

see... yumyum~

 it is tomato favourite...

very delicious o...

it is very successful^^

it is quite a interesting work to do this...

enjoy the whole process...

next time i will try do better!!!

want to try?

die

no heartbeat tonight...

my heart can't pulse ady...

i m spooky from now...

nthgs much i can says...

just no feeling anymore...

can i fall love again?

maybe after tonight...

the 2nd day when i open my eyes...

everythings can't be remain like previous....

because it was happened...

can i pretend like nothing occured?

i hope so...

i think i am brave enough...

i know i can...

"gampateh^^"

HAPPY

i am happy today^^

nothing special...felt fulfillment...
but i am really happy...

because i did a "over" affair...

just want to make a people happy...

who is very important to me...

i gave him a huge surprised...

it is bad...but worthful...

i won't forget today...

i will store it into my memory ever lasting...

appreciate that he is belongs to me...

"i am happy because of you are happy!"

YiinG

 my sweet^^

miss you suddenly...

recall back when we become closed...

begin from Form 4...

4 USM + 5 USM

large part of memories with you are about dancing...

because of dance performances for Chinese society ( 联欢会 )

we get closer to each other...

and eventually become best friends...

we had chorograph...

2 dances for each year...(野蛮游戏 + 舞孃)

and performed alot of times in different venues...

we were proud and satify...

i love both of this dances as well...

it was successful...

to prove us via the dances...

"we are not even the best dancer...

we are the best performer!!!"

you are the one who influenced me falls in love to dance...

thanks and love you...

Expectations

 bad news...

worst results...

always the same...

not surprised...

sad? not really...

just felt i am useless...

can't done a success things...

everyone scold me...

parents...friends...etc...

because of ,

i didn't concentrate...

i didn't put more effect...

not motivate myself at all...

i determined myself begin from now with :

1. don't skip class ( X ponteng!!!)
2. don't be late to attend class ( < 5 minutes )
   
3. pay 100% attention in class (don't chatting)
   
4. do all tutorial exercises (ask if don't know)
5. don't watch drama ( X pps)
6. arranged idle time for dancing (study more)
7. stop hanging outside (only in kampar as well )
8. save money ( stop shopping ) 

 my new life only study, study & study!!! 

waiting

final results released since yesterday...

but i wait until now still don't know my results yet...

not because i no dare to check it out...

i had prepared...

but it can't login into Utar portal

even though i try a lot of times...

my friends all know their results already...

it seems like not really good...

oh my god~

felt nervous...

can't breath smoothly while waiting...

how?
= God bless me =

Lie

I know that everyone will angry when someone lie to you...

same to me too...

but this time is...

i am the PINOCCHIO...

So,

i am sorry... ( felt bad + hurt )

i know i did wrong because not be honest to you all...

especially my parents...

i want to apologize to those who had lie by me before...

i know it is a fact and can't be forgive...

but i really want to let you know i myself felt bad too when i try to lie to you...

i am not happy and felt trouble to what i did...

and even can't forgive myself...

the reason always the same...

which is don't want you to worry about me this much...

all are for your own good...

so that i learn and choose to lie people...

actually i am not expert in lying people...

my lie are unbelievable...

because i will scare...i have symptoms of lie...

people will easily to know it immediately...so sad man~

FRIENDS ,

you are so clever...but maybe is i am stupid...

you know how to detect my lie as well...

everytime when i try to lie you,

you will know it...just after a moments i lie...

then you will laugh on me that why you so easy to expose by people?

don't lie again please...you are not well in it...

so funny isn't it?

but nowadays, you said me i had changed....become clever on lie...

when i try to lie, my symptoms not to appear anymore...

you can't guess it too...

you so hate me like this right? i hate myself like this too!

i cannot promise that i won't to lie again...because it is a lie too if i promise...

so...just want to let you know i am regret what i had did to you....

but those lie doesn't hurt on you too...

i wish that it won't affect our best relationship since we know each other when in childhood...( huge hugs )

Thanks, because you are still beside with me ~  

love you friends^^


MOM ,

same to you too...you are genius...

you know me well...know everythings of me because you are my lovely mom...

mom, i love you so much...thanks forgive me this much...

i am a bad daughter...

always let you worry a lot...

always hurt you a lot...

not same like brothers all let you felt assured to them...

i am trying to change myself be more mature...

not a headstrong kids like previous...

this is a promise and i will determine myself to do it! not to try my best, but it is a must!

love you mom^^

Troublesome

Stop!stop!stop!

please...won't you two felt tired?

since when start you both have this kind of customs?

Everyday when meet, both of you like looking for enemy!!!

sound so fierce to each other...

start to quarrel... argue with each other!

what are the reasons to make you quarrel so serious?

just about the bullshit tiny problems?  oh my god~

it is such as a cat and a dog annoying...

hey, listen! you both are not child anymore, you are adults...had children somemore....

why still wanna be like that? not you feel naif ?

i know that you both are felt bad and regret too after quarrel...

but still wanna to hurt each other...

why don't just like previously maintaining a good relationship with your family...

I am so miss our blissful memories~it was a greatful time^^

Is it very difficult? really? you didn't try it before, how you know?

i know i have no right to stop you both...i didn't blame you two....

but i wish you both can stop it...stop all this...

i didn't force or push you to stop it in a day...

I know you need time...

you can slowly as well as you two can be tolerance

and try to permissive each other...

try to communicate more...

and know how to forgive each other will do...

the essential is to love each other more^^

enjoy happy lifestyle okay?

i love both of you...

Best regards for you...

CRYing

After the called by him last night, I cant sleep although i am very tired...

My mood suddenly get down as well as from a more than 10 high building push down by someone, can you really imagine that how hurt i gain? Although it cant make me to die , but i wish to....because it is too hurt T_T  (die is no feel ) it is just an example, dont get shock! I am a open-minded people...wont try to kill myself so easily^^

In the moments, my tears cant stop and keep falling down into my heart...it is pain...

i determine myself dont to think this much because it is nothing...to me...and you...

Actually i was guessed that you will said to me one day but it is too fast and unexpected...so i cant be controlled...it is horror and awful news for me i think...maybe i am not that mature enough, but i wont force myself to change this because this is me!!myself!!ong wei ling!!

Do you know that actually you ask me this same kind of question to me again and again?

and my answer always the same...had you mention it?or you want me to give another answer so that can shut your mouth up to ask again? I am confused sometimes...

Everytimes I just act like nothing because dont wanna you worry alot...dont want you to think alot negative things...

I know you always say that is for my future own good...better to think it seriously...i know all this...but you dont actually what i want!you dont know!

I still felt pain and hurt, not because what you said to me, just...i...myself also dont know!dont know what i wan actually...u always said you are not really understand me,dont know what am i thinking,what u should do that can make me more happy and wont get hurt anymore...

All are my false...is me...

Eventually, i found the answer that is....ME!

FORGIVE ME

1.1.1

Hanging Out whole days today with Ave ,Pling and her hubby^^

Sudden received a call last night and that was Ave, she direct asked me wanna go out with her or not...
I answer :" yes,but got who join us?and where we go?"
she just reply :" be prepared, we will come around 10am tomorrow morning to fetch you out!"
I havent sound out anything but she cut my phone immediately...I am blur and totally don't know what happen...
I agree to go out because want to celebrate New Year 2010 , I am active people so don't want to stay home bore myself...and i am glad that she come back hometown to find me...

Morning i overslept, as usual i will wake up around 8am but i awake at 9 something,what going on to my alarm???"bad romance" din't wake me up ?! it is really rush to prepare myself....I had a quite slow motion attitude...havent taking breakfast and direct go with them since they came my house and waiting outside a few minutes....sorry for make you all wait,paiseh~
we take about 2 hours to ipoh, it was 12pm,i was hungry until a bit gastric...so bad >...

After finish eat we depart to Sungkai "hot water spa" together with happily~woohoo~

FUNNY BOTH OF US

Opps!!!7pm...is time to go back home, lolz...
we all were tired...all felt sleeply on the way to our hometown...a exotic trip with them,hope can go out again like today~

Big news!!!she forgot to bring her pans for change then she wear back the pans that was wet...oh my god~so uncomfortable!yucks~haha,funny girl~

 HAPPY HAPPY FUN

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Best Friend Forever^^