i'm lost but only you

PLEASE! 

because of my bad attitude, my friends start to dislike me and even hate me

i know this only this few days and it is too late to know all this

i did too many bad things to make u guys hatred of me

yup~ i admit all this , because i had change alot

since foundation life until now, about 2 years period

alot of things happen around me 

happiness and sadness

about my ex stuffs ...

it is obvious ! i seriously change my pattern (behaviors and attitudes) when i start my 2nd relationship...

firstly, i think that  because of tat FXXXer , and influence me change to another people

my friends all felt that i 'm not me anymore~ my attitude totally different, nobody can accept this! 

but day after day, i felt that this problem is my personal problem, 

not related to anyone of cause that FXXXer....

what wrong with me? 

why i change to become like that? STOP! 

don't make de problem become worst and can't cure !

i know it is hard to make my friend to accept me back...hate is hate ! can't force them to like me ...

i don't want to lost all my things anymore! 

i wanna find back~ if i did any wrong for u guys - i wanna say "I'M SORRY" !!!

i m not that clever when i make someone else not happy or angry, because my pattern is straight forward, din't think twice and just direct to say out my opinion~ 

that's why i make alot people unhappy and don't like to friend with me

i don't want continue all this! 

STOP PLZZZZZZZZZZZ.....

it's hurt and pain~

the things happen and it won't change back like previous time 

de things i should do right now is ...

don't do again ! this is a huge punishment and last time for me!

no more enough time for me to PLAY!

stop being like a kid plz!

guai la~ obedient and listen to mommy~ study hard !